If you take a quick peak around – I have completely stripped down my website.
Over the course of the last couple of weeks – I have changed the homepage, then changed it back. Changed it to something completely different – then changed it back. Came up with some tagline that just was NOT me and then deleted it. Key word in all of this – CHANGE.
I know, I know. I have been going on about changes here and changes there. My website was the last step in all of it.
I think this space has taken me the longest to figure out – because it will forever remain a work in progress. I know how very, very sparse this little space looks. But I do have to say it is all for good reason. After all of the weeks of work – yesterday I decided to scrape ALL.OF.IT. I realized that everything I was “trying” to put into this website, create and write about was not me. Not only did it bum me out – but it felt gross and entirely icky.
How about a little back story?
For as long as I can remember – I wanted to be a writer. I would scribble stories on little pieces of paper and journals my mother provided me. I would recall detailed accounts of snowy days at school and life with a little sister. Soon I realized I needed to get serious with my writing and asked Santa for a typewriter. As a 10 year old little girl – I wanted to impact the world with my stories. While most of them included NKOTB and Princess named Allison – my dreams of writing never faded – they just grew.
Through studying journalism at college and then working at a newspaper for a number of years not only did my dreams of writing come true but continued to develop and grow. No matter how big or small – I wanted to make an impact with my writing in some way. Because of writing I found photography. It has been a long time since I last worked at the newspaper – but I look back fondly at my time there and the stories I told, the people I met and the things I was able to experience.
With that said – I don’t want to use my writing, blog and creative space for something that will never, ever be me. Through all of the changes over the last few months – one thing that has remained constant – my love for writing and my passion for it. For the sake of being completely transparent – I am glad I took my time while I figuring this out. In my last post – I wrote about my website feeling foreign and strange to me and I was heading down that exact same path again. Exact.
So – for now it will remain stripped. Kind of bare. Kind of plain. I am okay with that. I want to re-focus on the writing. Re-focus on the photos. Re-center. Re-group.
I know I will forever be a work in progress and this space completely reflects that.